LosEvolution

It’s so hard to be optimistic about life and the things it throws. To keep the positive attitude throughout it all, to keep that view of the light at the end of the proverbial tunnel. To raise your fist to the sky, no matter the consequences. It’s a hard thing to do and sometimes the ol’ optimism wears out at times. The ol concept with the glass being half-full and half-empty. I wonder: Maybe we should not worry how empty or full the glass is. Maybe we should be lucky to have the glass itself.

Motivation…

“You can look me in the eyes, and see I’m ready for whatever
Anything that don’t kill me, make me better” – T.I. : Motivation

Staying motivated and enduring the circumstances that come with life. Hardships, complications, heartbreak, pretty much anything that life deals. It’s pretty much like a card game: the hand HAS to be played.

Confidence is trust or faith that a person or thing is capable. (Wikipedia) Believing that one is capable of pretty much anything that the mind is set to. To have this overwhelming confidence, to look on that bright side, to show bravery, fortitude, guts, courage, and anything that relates to some sort of heroism. Not saying that you have to be a hero to have confidence, but sometimes it seems that confidence can be broken as easy as it is built.

It is so difficult to hold on to these three things when the chips are down, when things roll downhill. But it is at that point where those three things come into play the most. Confidence that a person can pull off anything, motivation to actually do something with that confidence, and keeping the optimism that things will work out for the best.

This defines my diverse music taste, lol

It’s Probably Me

by Sting, Michael Kamen and Eric Clapton

If the night turned cold and the stars looked down
And you hug yourself on the cold cold ground.
You wake the morning in a stranger’s coat,
No one would you see.
You ask yourself, who’d watch for me?
My only friend, who could it be?
It’s hard to say it, I hate to say it, but it’s probably me.

When your belly’s empty and the hunger’s so real
And you’re too proud to beg and too dumb to steal,
You search the city for your only friend,
No one would you see.
You ask yourself, who’d watch for me?
A solitary voice to speak out and set me free.
I hate to say it, I hate to say it, but it’s probably me.

You’re not the easiest person I ever got to know
And it’s hard for us both to let our feelings show.
Some would say I should let you go your way,
You’ll only make me cry.
But if there’s one guy, just one guy
Who’d lay down his life for you and die,
I hate to say it, I hate to say it, but it’s probably me.

When the world’s gone crazy and it makes no sense
And there’s only one voice that comes to your defense.
The jury’s out and your eyes search the room
And one friendly face is all you need to see.
And if there’s one guy, just one guy
Who’d lay down his life for you and die,
I hate to say it, I hate to say it, but it’s probably me.

I hate to say it, I hate to say it, but it’s probably me…

The Heads/Tails concept is confusing at times when it’s applied to a person. Self-expression is perhaps the hardest thing. It is true that I do keep to myself, despite how outward I may seem. I may speak to others when I see them, but that’s pretty much it. I don’t know why, but I find myself at a distance from the people that I claim to care about. The fact is that expressing myself is the most difficult thing ever. Heh..guess that’s why I stick to the side of the coin that I’m used to..the part where I socialize ONLY when necessary. Otherwise, I retreat into my own world.

And exactly what is my own world? It is a shadow existence to say the least. To be the guy behind the scenes, an observer of what goes on around him, not saying much, but accepting what happens. I see that I am like this even in the Internet world, a world where a lot of people reinvent themselves. On-Line, I do have a lot of people that I can and do converse with, but there are points where I completely maintain my silence, especially in on-line gaming lobbies. It’s like the conversations are above my head and I’m just there, feeling awkward. I guess this applies to me in real life also.

http://www.wikipedia.com

Wikipedia – The answer to anything and everything. I wonder what does NOT have a wiki, because it seems like anything has a wiki written of it.

For those who don’t know, Wikipedia is a big database edited and maintained by the internet world. Translation: we edit it. Accuracy and clarity is still emphasized though. It’s amazing how huge Wikipedia is. If you don’t believe me, just check it out for yourself!

Damn weather and its unpredictability, made me a little under the weather (no pun intended). So, handled business as usual, had a quiz, took an exam, went to work, and about 12:50, I was like “screw it.” I felt like crap most of the day, so I crashed about 4pm and woke up again about 6. It’s really abnormal for me to sleep during the day and to be sick for that matter. I was just laying down in the bed and next thing you know, I’m out like a light. After that nap, I rolled to this LAN party at the computer lab, and played a little CounterStrike: Source. It was fun, I played for a few hours. So here I am, blogging and playing Capcom vs SNK 2: EO at home.

Here are two shots of my desktop, before and after cleanup. And yes, I did a printscreen of my desktop cuz I was bored. I’m using a theme called Edisso, and the wallpaper came with the Vista Transformation Pack for Windows XP.