LosEvolution

“Kay Hymowitz recently stated on NPR that 20-30 year-old men should stop playing video games and become productive members of society. Why can’t we do both, and what makes games the problem?”
First of all, I look at this differently because I’m a 21-year old gamer. Also, there’s the matter of being a University of Mississippi student, an aspiring IT Consultant, and the Los behind LosEvolution. So, I can say I have done both for the past 4 years, and I have been a gamer for roughly 15 years strong. I don’t see an end in sight to it. Videogaming is too deep into my being, as it consumes a great portion of it. Not saying that I do not prioritize my life, but a guy’s gotta have fun somehow.

As for the other parts like marriage and kids, no way am I ready. I’m not even done with college yet, which will take me another year.

So I live my life in the way I want to live it: a gamer, a student, an employee, a friend, a significant other, and most importantly, a child of God.

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As I sit in the chair that has taken the heat of my emotions and comforted my feelings during my writing, tv watching, gaming, and browsing, I realize that each time I breathe, it’s never the same. It’s a different breath every time, unique from any I have taken before. It’s a feeling of true enlightenment.

I’ve seen a lot over the past 4 years….done a lot as well. Guess I’ve lived a mini-lifetime in that particular point, experiencing a lot. I hold no one to fault for my mistakes but myself, because they are my mistakes. That’s the thing with my life at the moment….acceptance.

I accept how things are at this particular point and how things happened between me and the rest of the world. No point in sulking, slouching, or being boring. So I ended a lot of crap with a new year coming in. It’s like a weight is off my shoulders, and basically I’m gonna translate it in this way….If you have someone in your life that appears to be dead weight, let them go.

And now the ending of the Old Thoughts Story…

In this world……100% is only given when a person looks at himself and there’s nothing left. He collapses in a pool of sweet, tears, blood, knowing the fact that he laid it all on the line….to accomplish a goal. To sit back and say, “Damn it! That’s all I got!” Well I say if you got the strength to open a mouth and complain, bitch and moan, you still got something left.

Wow, this is like digging into the old closet to find skeletons. Hard to do if you cleaned it out……………

This one is basically a story.

One day, as I was looking at Youtube (it’s crack, by the way), I came across a lot of stuff pertaining to my interest in wrestling, pertaining to The Rock. As a kid, I remember how much I idolized him, basically a die-hard fan, hoping for the opportunity to just sit back, raise my fist high, just like him. I remember the ‘never say die’ attitude I had with it. It wasn’t an imitation, but more like an application to my life at that point. It’s like when you take two pieces of clay and make a mold out of the pieces. Well this was one of my pieces.

So, I kept flashing through the videos, finding the trash-talking points, and the one that stuck in mind is the one that had this quote: “All I care about is being the absolute best.”

I remember when I used to care about that. It was passion, so much drive to be absolute, to have meaning behind everything I did. Every challenge I took on, everybody I faced, every game I played, and every person who saw me…knew that there was only one thing that came from me, one thing that came from deep inside….desire. It reflected….it consumed…..it electrified. It was in every part of my being. Desire was a drug…..one that I relished with every second. One that enjoyed taking….but if you lose it…it’s hard to get back….

Now, the new thoughts…

I did the Old vs New bit a while back, composing random thoughts and views in my poetry. Today is a new one, as I’m going to attempt two thoughts within two separate posts. A lot of the old ideas will be a reflection on my old thought patterns while the new ones are based on what I know at this current point and time.

Old Thoughts

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New Thoughts

These posts will officially appear on the site at 3pm CST, but you can check them out now.

Last week was supposed to be my last wrestling post but I HAD TO DO THIS ONE!

After 4 months, John Cena returns and wins the Royal Rumble!!!!

Cena Returns..