LosEvolution

I hear so many people say, “I remember when you did…” or “You used to do this….”. I say this, live in the past if you want. The present will not be present forever, or the future be future. Life is a moment. When a second is gone, that is one second off life. Some people live by the day, I live by the second. I try to make each second spent better than the last. The hilarious part is that a second passes before your eyes faster than you can blink.

So, why the mirror?

Some people like to remind you how you used to be. I tell those people, “That was me, deal with who I am now, or step off.”
It’s your choice. If people are trying to change their lives into something positive, let those people change. Who knows, they may find their way back if you were left behind.

Back and Forward – The Mirror

For the past 6 months, I can say there has been a little of this…..

in me. It has been evolving all over, starting from my mentality in the weight room to, now every aspect in my life. Let’s face it, since I was a kid, I took the concept of ‘the best’ literally. For me, it was 100% or bust. Anything I looked at and decided that I can do, I wanted to be great at it.
Now
Now I know what I can and cannot do. The thing is that I may know my limits, but I want to know how far I can push this envelope. The secret to this is that I absolutely refuse the shortcuts. To be multifaceted, multidimensional, and to constantly push all limits. This is Me. This is LosEvolution.

“This is Animal. Can you handle it?”

For a few years, there has been a struggle to maintain peace with my persona and with who I want to be. The thing is that I once nurtured my persona because it was how the world perceived me. It got me where I needed to go, but was I happy? No. It was not until I did away with that and became who I am today that I found true peace and even a measure of sanity.

I know for a fact that I am not a saint. Despite this, I do have a moral code I live by. I always talked about it, but I think I finally found a legit meaning for it.

“Do it face to face, make sure that your heart is in the right place. Change through God’s grace.”

It is through this code that from this day forth, I live my life. I believe that by this reason, by this code, by this morality, I will maintain and achieve the success I want. I have come to the conclusion that passiveness is not the answer (Thanks @AuKtober). It is those who actively make changes in life that make all the difference.
I smile a lot more knowing that the people I have met along the way have changed me to the point where I am now.

Random thought while reading the Animal Owner’s Manual….

“you can’t teach a man to be a leader.”

I read this and it truly hit me. I realized why I always feel like I have to go all in on the things I do.

The Gym

Boy, I remember when I started. Mainly I was going along with a few friends, trying to play keep-up and match what was being shown to me. That got boring and went downhill faster than a rolling tire. It was not until January when something went off in my head. I wanted size, but I did not know what I was doing wrong in the gym. I found out that it was not the work in the gym that was the problem. It was my dedication outside. The diet had to change, as well as the rest. Also there was the drive to go to the limit. A lot of guys want the size, but they are too damn scared to pick up the weight. Screw the machines, grind the iron until you cannot do it anymore. Put your maximum into the workout and the maximum results WILL come.

Life

I wanted success, but I was too damn scared of failing. So, when risks came around, I was too passive. It was not until I was told I was too passive and even lazy when I realized, sometimes you have to point the 6-shooter to the head and play Russian Roulette. Good thing is that the bullets do not kill you in this version. You live, you learn, you keep pushing.

So how many times YOU have said, “I want” and the word “but” was attached to it?

2.5 hours before final exam #3….man it’s been a month since something was written…

A month away from the game, a month away from being who I am and what I do. I have been away from the pen and pad to come back stronger, more lyrical, and more influential with my vision, my words, my lyrics, and my direction.

Basically the first 5 months of 2010 was me stepping back into who I am. It was me taking each aspect and working on it at a time. Physically, spiritually, mentally, and emotionally, I have tried to make strides in this improvement because of one thing: lack of satisfaction. Until I realize what I believe is my best, I will not stop trying to push each aspect of myself to the limit. My physical strides are documented as now I am stronger than I have ever been. Regaining a lot of my youthful talents was the most difficult thing I have ever done. The thing with talent is that once you lost it, either you work twice as hard to get it back or it is lost forever.

The next move for me….is to keep pushing, to keep striving.

I write for expression, my words are my voice.
I follow God for protection, his way is my choice.